First post

Hey everyone!

My name is Dani, my boyfriend is Andrew.
Andrew is in the United States Army, stationed in Texas at Ft. Bliss.

OUR LITTLE FACTS:
+ We are both originally from Rochester Hills, Michigan.
+ We went to high school together, and were in the same circle of friends but for some reason never really got all that close... Proof that true love will always find it's way.
+ Years passed and our hearts were broken by others, troubles were had as well as triumphs. We grew. We changed, and finally became the people we needed to be unknowingly, to be absolutely perfect for each other.
+ Most importantly.... We are absolutely, head over heels, soul mate, puzzle piece, madly deeply in love.


MY BIG REASON:
Andrew is preparing to deploy in December . I decided to start this blog, mainly for myself.. but also because I understand the stress that comes with being with someone in the military. Especially active duty, as my lover pants is. For me the challenges come in missing him. In the past couple months most of Andrew's time has been spent sleeping in a field in New Mexico, doing training exercises for his deployment. For months we were apart, me still living in Michigan and him here. We would talk on the phone as much as we could, skype, text, anything we could do to keep each other feeling safe and close. Finally at the end of August I came to live in Texas! It was the happiest day of my life thus far being able to hold the love of my life after only seeing him through a computer. Since I got here, more training and time apart has occurred. I spent two weeks alone in our apartment, which was really hard. Hard because all you want when you know he is about to leave you for a year is to hold onto him like a monkey...never letting go. Also hard because I didn't like being alone in our apartment at night, it was scary! I am preparing myself slowly but surely for December, and often times I will find myself breaking down into tears in the shower, or while driving, or just while looking at his picture on facebook. I love my soldier. Standing by his side will be the easiest choice I have ever made, but missing him every moment will be the hardest action. I fully intend to scream into my pillow at least 4 nights a week for at least the first 3 months. I fully intend on sleeping with his pictures taped to my headboard. I fully intend on loving him more and more everyday, and dreaming of the moment I get to kiss him again. I fully intend on being his rock.

This blog will be a help.
A friend, a forem, a therapist, a filler, a comfort, a listener, and most of all a teacher.
I have found that when I struggle, if I write things down and go back a week or so later I can see my growth, and how much my struggling has strengthened who I am as a women. For some this is all a totally foreign concept. For some the entire military life is completely unfathomable to them, I understand.. it was to me too. But for many, you are right there with me. That is my hope. That this blog can not only help me through what will be the first, hardest year of my life (I say first because he will deploy many times) but also help all of you. I know there are so many wives/fiances/girlfriends who feel this way right now. OR who have in the past. I welcome comments please, as many of you have been through this before you know for those of us who have not... we need all the help we can get.

I hope this is a fun experience for others, I hope you enjoy and most of all I hope you smile at some point and are comforted by my words.

Here we go....
we're all in this together.